Yes indeed, absolutely agree with everything you typed there Penny.
I'm at the stage where I'm having a lot of people saying 'be careful at what you say and where'. Yes, I know to be careful but I'm not about to live with that fear. Likewise too the control I have to use everyday to keep myself in check - is exhausting and can be triggered by accident with unfortunate results.
Is there information out there for methods of control? Perhaps (if) I had these abilities in 3D real world, I could safely practise? somewhere remote; and gain familiarity and control.